Can you believe it? After 5 years of dating, over 2 years of being engaged and countless sleepless nights, it’s only 10 days till my wedding.
Yes the heat is on and the rocky theme song is playing!
As a little girl, I never really dreamt of my wedding day, it was never a big MUST on my list of to dos. I figured out very early on that if you have good friends and a great family you would be happy. Though this is very true and I was happy but then I met Guy who I can honestly say is my best friend. He takes me and loves me for all the good and the bad and yes even the UGLY and this is the reason that I can not wait to say I do.
I can’t wait to walk down the isle and have him at the other end tell me that he loves me FOREVER! I am so blessed to have so many beautiful friends coming to my wedding to share in this one moment.
I have to stop with the sloppy love stuff now as I am making myself sick.
So here we go…. 10 days to go
The rational side of me understands that your past helps shape the person you become in the future but what you don’t realise is that your past impacts on your future relationships.
Well my past is certainly impacting on my current relationship as I am continually waiting for the big crash, the moment where my wonderful life turns to crap and my world falls apart.
My fiancé deals with my irrational thoughts with grace and understanding but I wonder why I just can’t seem to get it through my head that I have been lucky enough to meet a man who understands and loves me.
Don’t mistake these feelings for cold feet as they are far from that, I know that I am with the man of my dreams, I know this as I have been with some jerks and my fiancé is the nicest, kindest smartest man I know. So why can’t I just accept that I am allowed to just be happy?
I am sure I am not the only one who has ever worried that their bubble might burst so any tips would be appreciated