I am sure I am not the only one this has happened to but I haven’t had a decent nights sleep in about 3 weeks. I am fine and confident about everything during the day but for some reason at night my subconscious wants me to stress about EVERYTHING.
Last night in my dream the wedding venue had double booked with a Christian revival while people were upset that they had been given the wrong time. The worst part was my dress ripped and my nipples were showing!
Seriously, I can’t take another sleepless night. I don’t need to stress every day and every night about this wedding, I know it’s going to be a hoot.
My darling fiancé even went to the effort of dressing as Bowie for Halloween one year. Gee, he knows how to make me happy 😉
My head fills with so many amazing memories when it comes to Bowie. One of my favourites is when my friends Hannah, Steph and Aaron and I had all had a TERRIBLE day on the film set we were working on (I used to work as a Continuity Supervisor on independent feature films). After the longest, wettest, most depressing days in our short careers, somehow singing along to Bowie ‘s greatest hits lifted our spirits and quite honestly, instantly changed the mood in the car, despiteit being a bloody long drive home!
Then there were all of those nights I stayed up with my old house mate Megan singing and dancing drunkenly along to Bowie and his 80’s music “Changes” & “Modern Love” in our living room. BROKE but oh so happy.
And now we have the times when Guy (my Fiancé) will sing along to Bowie while we drive through the hills. Keep in mind that Bowie was not his type of music at all until I came along, and I am pretty sure it’s still not his favourite but he understands how I find Bowie mood altering. That is what leads me to NOW….
Lately I need lots of David Bowie to get me across the line! For someone who is trying to create a no fuss wedding, I seem to still be getting myself into a tiss! Seriously, WE SHOULD HAVE ELOPED!
So as I am dotting all the I’s and crossing all the T’s for this wedding, I can’t help but sit here listening to the countdown from Space Oddity.
When I want to remember what a great couple Guy and I are and why we are going through all of this fuss, I listen to Changes (not for the lyrics but for the memories).
Modern love is my go to Bowie wedding song so it’s always on my playlist at the moment.
Let’s Dance makes me think of partying and that just makes me think of how great the reception will be once we have all let our hair down.
And finally Ashes to Ashes makes me thinking of dancing in Guy’s arms and that is my favourite thought that gets me through the stressful times. I have to keep reminding myself that this is our wedding and we will get there and it will all be worth it on the day.
GOD BLESS YOU DAVID BOWIE!
Feel free to give me some mood altering music suggestions as I still have 2 1/2 months to go and think I will definitely need more!
On Thursday, it was measurement day (da da daaaaaaa).
NOPE it wasn’t scary at all. Unlike any other program like Jenny Craig or Weight Watchers, the weigh in and measurement day is actually something you look forward to as you KNOW you have lost weight!
Before revealing my 1 month results, I need to explain that when I started this weight-loss journey using the Isagenix products, I didn’t really change my lifestyle too much. I didn’t change my exercise programs and to be completely honest I didn’t change my social life habits either, as my friends and family can certainly attest too!
I wanted to see what a difference this program would make without changing too much.
Well, one month, 30 days on Isagenix, I have lost 5kgs and 25cms. Not bad for someone who still drank on weekends!
I had already lost 2kgs in the month leading up to starting this program so now I have now lost a grand total of 7 kgs.
Albeit, it seems that most of the centimeters have come off my face and boobs, it is coming off!
Now though, to most this seems like a great result, it’s not the dramatic result I need to be able to look myself in the mirror and know I put 100% of my energy into creating the body I want to walk down the aisle with. Beyond that, the body I want to have for the rest of my life.
So here I am, making a commitment to intensify my workouts and curb my bad social life habits.
I am really looking forward to giving you more DRASTIC results in one month time so stay tuned and feel free to help me stay motivated.
Well, I might be going a little overboard with that statement but the whole process of deciding who to invite and who to remove from the list is the biggest headache I have had so far with this wedding.
If you don’t know me personally, I am a people-pleaser and I want to keep EVERYONE happy. But I can’t. I would love to invite everyone. But I am not able too.
After a big discussion with my Matron of Honour and my Fiancé, who have opposing opinions, I think I have decided to keep both of them happy and do both (do you see the common theme here?)
So my question to you… Am I doing the right thing?
So I am now thinking I will invite people to come and check out the wedding (which is being held in a pretty cool location and has its own bar on premises) to keep those who can’t wait to toast my nuptials happy and then I am organising an after-party! This is for those friends who we just can’t invite to the reception but who, we know just want to come and enjoy a few drinks and celebrate what will be a very lovely day with us.
So… is it wrong to do this?
I know it is my wedding and in theory I can do whatever I want but in reality, I care what people think of me and never want to hurt them or disappoint them so I definitely do not want to send out an invitation to an after-party if it will offend that person.
Disclaimer, this is not a photo of me or any of my friends however, I did “borrow” it from a dear friend called GOOGLE